If only you hadn't died

If only you hadn't died,
well my heart would've never cried,
that feeling of grief would've,
never touched my pride,
and my heart would've remained a better place for me to hide.!

The moment i lost you,
i felt really pathetic,
sad,lost and confused that i was,
my life had a change,
which was drastic!
Minutes turned to hours,
and hours to days,
but no one realized,
that my life was now trapped, in a deep blue maze!
However hard i try,
it seems impossible to get out,
filled with abhorrence and anger,
all that i now hear,
is a frustrated shout!

My life would've been so better,
if only you had remained,
and now when it dawns on me that i lost you,
I really feel very pained!

It pains me, when i realize,
that the beast took you away,
and that was when i recognized,
the deep slumber in which i lay!

I wish I'd been of some help,
to make you fully fit,
which alas I was unable to! SHIT!

The moment you left,
I felt my life ended too,
because it isn't worth living,
without a friend like you!

You stood by me,
all my life,
and the guilt now pangs me,
that i couldn't help,
in your fatal strife.
I just stood there helpless,
watching you die,
and when my numb senses came back to life,
I knew there was nothing that,
I could do, but cry!

I caterwauled a lot,
but up to no avail,
I wish to bring you back to life,
but I'll have to admit,
that I ain't worthy of it,
and will always remain this frail!